Why do I watch Korean dramas?

When I grew up, I didn’t watch Korean dramas. My parents always did. Even now when I visit them, the television is always on the Korean channel. Growing up, I didn’t really wrestle with my identity as a Korean American. In some ways I had a negative view of my identity because of the bad experiences that I had at Korean churches in my childhood. It wasn’t until college that I actually grappled with my ethnic identity. I would join the Korean Student Association and take Korean language classes in college.

I went through a phase of listening to Kpop including groups like HOT, SES, Turbo, GOD, FINKL, and Seo Taiji. However, a few years later, I went through a Korean movie phase with classics like “My Sassy Girl”, “Joint Security Area”, “Shiri”, “Failan”, “Kick the Moon”, and “Hi, Dharma!” I didn’t get into Korean drama because I didn’t want to invest the time to watch 20 or more episodes. The one Korean drama I did watch (“Summer Scent”), I binge watched all 20 episodes in one day. This particular drama was ridiculously irrational with a man who finds a connection with a woman who he later finds out had a heart transplant from his dead lover.

However, a few years ago, I started to watch Korean dramas again to mostly connect with my mother. I wanted to have something to talk to her about. I first watched “Secret Garden” which is my all-time favorite Korean drama. The drama had all the hallmarks of common Korean drama tropes including a rich chaebol (chaebols are huge family corporations that dominate the Korean economy like Hyundai and Samsung) who falls in love with a poor girl and brings out the best in him, body swapping, amnesia, an evil mother, and the two main characters who met each other when they were younger and not knowing it.

The fatalism I would find in Korean dramas helped me understand my parents. They never got too high or too low. Even if something positive would happen, they would be cautious knowing that fate can deal them a bad hand at anytime. This would materialize in the advice they would give me. They always emphasized being careful and cautious. I had to prepare for the difficult times that were surely to come. When I was a child, I didn’t understand why they were like that. However, when I started to watch Korean dramas, I realized where they were coming from. So many Korean dramas deal with fate giving you a bad hand. There was this sense of two lovers who are meant to be together and yet they are not able to. In Korean dramas, lovers are blocked by evil in-laws, terminal diseases, memory loss, and death. The famous Korean folk song “Arirang” describes the tragedy of two lovers who are unable to get together.

This inability for two lovers to come together working out into a very sad ending reflects the Korean peninsula’s division between North and South which was a political division of the Cold War that was created by forces beyond the control of Koreans. This theme is throughout various dramas like “IRIS”, “Athena: Goddess of War”, “The King 2 Hearts”, and “Descendants of the Sun”.

This fatalism can be a double-edged sword. On one hand, it can lead to a despair where everything is out of your control. However, it can also give us a healthy humility in which everything isn’t dependent on us. From a Christian point-of-view, it can create a higher dependence on God knowing that you are not in total control of your life which is counter to what is vastly propagated in American culture.

Also, I have a deeper understanding of “han”(Korean concept of pain, bitterness, lament, injustice which has no English translation) and a deeper appreciation of “jung” (Korean concept of loyalty, friendship, connection, love for others which  has no English translation). This yin and yang of Korean culture has had a huge impact on my life. I have had deep bouts with depression, despair, pain, loneliness, and sadness while also balanced out by intense experiences of happiness, joy, peace, hope, and love. Life guarantees both extremes and I have learned how to accept both realities.

I am still figuring out my Korean American identity. In ministry, I realize how my Korean American identity differs from my colleagues who are Chinese, Taiwanese, and Japanese American. There are definitely similarities between various the East Asian ethnicities. However, there are cultural differences that bring about both new possibilities and cross-cultural obstacles when working together. I also see the differences when watching Chinese, Taiwanese, and Japanese movies and dramas. However, that is a different post for a different time.

I don’t know if this post has a point. However, I look forward to watching “Doctors” with Kim Rae Won and Park Shin Hye, “W” with Lee Jong Suk and Han Hyo Joo, and “Uncontrollably Fond” with Kim Woo Bin and Suzy this summer! Good luck with your Korean drama binging!

PS: If you haven’t watched “Signal”, I highly recommend it. It was the best Korean drama I watched this year and one of my top 3 Korean dramas of all-time!


Sexism, Hillary Clinton, and Presidential politics

This has been an interesting political season especially with the rise of Donald Trump. We now have a matchup between Hillary Clinton and Donald Trump. What has been disconcerting is the way that some of my friends create a false equivalency between the two candidates. They say both candidates would be equally terrible for the nation. Certain people have asserted that Clinton would be worse than Trump. Others have exclaimed that a Trump presidency would not be as bad as people say or for others a Trump presidency would be so apocalyptic that it would prompt a progressive revolution. I do not understand such sentiments at all.

I supported Hillary Clinton in 2008. I thought she had the experience and competence to be President especially following the incompetence of George W Bush who will probably go down as the worst or one of the worst Presidents of all-time. During the primary between Barack Obama and Hillary Clinton, there was not too many substantive policy differences between the two candidates. The differences came in style. I admit that I consider myself more of a realist than an idealist over time. I was much more of an idealist when I was in college. In the 2000 Democratic primary, I supported and campaigned for insurgent candidate Bill Bradley over Vice President Al Gore. In Bradley, I saw possibilities of what could be with a progressive platform. Bradley came to the University of Washington and held a rally on Red Square trying to inspire young people to vote. However, when it came time to vote, Gore demolished Bradley winning every single primary and caucus that calendar year including trouncing him in the Washington state primary. After Bradley bowed out of the campaign and endorsed Gore, I quickly supported and campaigned for Al Gore. However, I had people around me who wanted to have a protest vote and voted for Ralph Nader. Fast forward to election night and Florida flips from Al Gore to George W Bush and it is discovered that through a terrible ballot design, many voters in Palm Beach County, Florida who had intended to vote for Al Gore ended up accidentally voting for Pat Buchanan. Through the shenanigans of the Supreme Court, Governor Jeb Bush of Florida, and Florida Secretary of State Katherine Harris, the election was stolen and given to George W Bush. He was certified the winner of Florida by 537 votes. If a few hundred Nader protest voters had voted for Gore, we would have had a different result. What did we get? We got the worst President of my lifetime and the most vulnerable among us suffered the greatest!

Idealism has its place. However, we have a huge threat in Donald Trump who promises to be an even worse and scary president than George W Bush. His vitriolic rhetoric has given permission to racists to speak up and express their hateful language. The people who will suffer the most under a Trump presidency will be people of color. Some white progressives say its better to either vote for Trump or to vote for a third party as a way to protest. They claim that a Trump presidency wouldn’t be as bad as some people are making it out to be and that a Clinton presidency would somehow be worse. Of course, this is undeniably untrue. However, the privilege that some of these white progressives like Susan Sarandon who would be shielded from a Trump presidency through her wealth and whiteness have no sense of the fear and anxiety that people of color like myself feel about a Trump presidency. I will not be a martyr to some magical hope of a political revolution by white progressives that materializes from the terror of a Trump presidency.

My last point is that Hillary Clinton and Barack Obama do not differ much on policy. Many people praise President Obama for what he’s done but then denigrate Hillary Clinton when their policy positions are virtually the same. President Obama’s health care plan is basically what Hillary Clinton advocated in 2008 with the individual mandate which at the time, Barack Obama objected to. I wonder if one reason that Hillary Clinton gets such criticism and vitriol has to do with sexism. I’m not saying everyone who disagrees with Hillary Clinton is sexist. However, the attacks both from some Donald Trump and Bernie Sanders supporters definitely attack her in a way that a man wouldn’t. The use of sexist slurs like b**** and c*** have no place in political discourse. So if Hillary Clinton is extremely qualified and has similar policy positions as Barack Obama, then why is he affirmed and why is she maligned by the same people? Could sexism be the reason? I think it has something to do with it though I would never claim that it’s the main or only reason. Moreover, she voted with Bernie Sanders 93% of the time in the US Senate and yet you would think listening to some of the Bernie Bros that she is some kind of extreme right wing conservative which of course is ridiculous. Also, it’s unfortunate that Bernie Sanders has not mentioned the historic nature of the first female candidate to be the Presidential nominee for a major political party in US history. No matter what you think about her, this is a major historic moment in our nation’s history.

When supporting a presidential candidate, I am not looking for a messiah who will miraculously solve our nation’s problems overnight. Unlike some of my friends who support Bernie Sanders, I can acknowledge Hillary Clinton’s fault. She is definitely far from perfect. I don’t agree with every policy position that she has. However, she is someone that I truly believe is qualified and competent to do this job. I’m not looking for her to magically solve our nation’s problems by herself. Real change in our current system comes from down ballot candidates including the Congress, governors, and state legislatures. President Obama has shown that an obstinate Congress can halt the governing process. So if you want real change, tearing down Hillary Clinton is not really going to do anything but to ensure a Donald Trump presidency. Yes please keep Hillary Clinton accountable. However, do not think for a second if you are rational that Hillary Clinton is just as terrible or even worse than Donald Trump. Let’s not believe in this false equivalency propagated by Trump and Sanders supporters.

Blogging Old Testament Style – God

This last blog will focus on the topic of God. God? This was the last theme of the class. The question was, what do we learn about God by reading through the Old Testament? As I started this process, I have to admit that my exposure to the Old Testament was limited. I hadn’t heard too many sermons or had done that many bible studies on the Old Testament. Even when I had exposure to the Old Testament, it was usually the same few texts whether it was the story of the creation/fall, the exodus/Moses, David, Jonah, and Esther. Why don’t we have more exposure to the stories that confuse or scare us? What about the story in Exodus 4 where God wants to kill Moses and his wife has to circumcise their son to save him? What about God’s call to Joshua to wipe out whole nations as they take over the Promised Land? What about the sexual assault on women like Tamar and Dinah? What about the tribe of Benjamin who are allowed to  abduct the women of a neighboring tribe as their wives in Judges 21? What about Moses “changing” the mind of God in Exodus 32?

There are many more questions we can ask about the Old Testament. Comedian Bill Maher has stated that the story of Noah shows God as a “psychotic mass murderer”. Richard Dawkins, Sam Harris, and Christopher Hitchens along with other members of the New Atheism movement have attacked God as a petulant and patriarchal deity who arbitrarily kills humans as he pleases based on the Old Testament. Of course, I would vehemently disagree with this assessment and I won’t go into detail about why I think their views are wrong and skewed. However, if I’m honest, there are ways I can see how other people could perceive God in not so nice terms based on reading certain parts of the Old Testament. The Old Testament is raw. It doesn’t hold back. But that’s what I love about it. It’s not sanitized. It’s not trying to gloss over the difficult stuff. It’s all there for all of us to see. However, people tend to neglect God’s grace and love that is also sprinkled throughout the Old Testament. He repeats this mantra of “you are my people and I am your God”. Even though the people of Israel keep breaking their covenant with God, God is still with them. God still loves them.

Sometimes we as Christians can be Marcionites or people who want to get rid of the Old Testament. We all relate to the language of love and grace in the New Testament. However, we may subconsciously dismiss the Old Testament because it shows God’s anger and wrath. We’d rather deal with grace rather than judgment. However, there is a language of grace in the Old Testament and a language of judgment in the New Testament. Also, as Christians we must believe that the God of the Old Testament is the same as the God of the New Testament. Scripture gives us a wholistic picture of God. We can’t pick and choose which parts we like and don’t like. Moreover, you can’t understand the New Testament without knowing the Old Testament. There are so many Old Testament references by Jesus and Paul that what they talk about won’t be comprehensible without referring back to the Old Testament. The Old Testament is a beautiful yet challenging text. There are still so many questions I still don’t have answers to. Yet, I still believe in the goodness of God. There is nothing else I can hold onto but to the hope that is given to us by God.

Blogging Old Testament Style – Wisdom

This blog post will deal with the topic of wisdom. Wisdom is a broad topic. Wikipedia defines wisdom as “the ability to think and act utilizing knowledge, experience, understanding, common sense, and insight”. The Old Testament includes a section called “Wisdom literature”. This includes the books of Proverbs, Ecclesiastes, and Job. Sometimes this section feels out of place from the rest of the Old Testament. However, they provide important insight into how to live a good life.

Proverbs is a practical and optimistic text. It offers helpful advice on how to make good choices in your life. Proverbs shows us that life is not about just one decision but a lifetime of choices that we make. If we make good choices throughout our life, we will be able to live a fruitful life. We have the freedom to choose wisdom or folly.

Ecclesiastes is much more somber. The author of this book, Quoheleth, laments that so many things we think are worthy of our attention are meaningless. Whether it’s wealth, hard work, and wisdom, all those things are meaningless. Whether we are good or evil, we will all meet the same fate in the form of death at the end of our lives. Even though this text is somber, it also does a great job of showing us that the idols of this world will never lead to anything meaningful in our lives. God is the only thing that lasts and brings meaning.

Job is a difficult book to read. It’s a story of a faithful follower of God who loses everything in his life that is important to him. Before all this happens, “the satan” tells God that Job is only faithful because God has blessed him. To prove “the satan” wrong, God allows “the satan” to take away all that Job has. At first glance, it seems cruel for God to let this happen to Joel. Why would God do this just to make a point to “the satan”? This brings up the concept of “disinterested righteousness”. Can we pursue righteousness without expecting any sort of reward? I wonder if we subconsciously expect God’s blessing just for doing what we’re supposed to do as Christians. Job through a painful process debates his friends and at the end he comes to the conclusion that God is still worthy to be praised. God blesses Job twofold at the end.

Why do we pursue wisdom? Because it’s God’s gift to us. We should pursue the knowledge that will help us live a righteous life that is pleasing to God. Wisdom is usually not talked about much in our sermons. It isn’t talked about in our bible studies. However, wisdom is such a key to living a life of discipleship. We need to listen to God’s words of life so that we may live a meaningful life and not be tempted to follow the fool’s gold that the world has to offer.

Blogging Old Testament Style – Jerusalem: Temple, Hope, Messiah

This blog post will deal with the topic of Jerusalem: temple, hope, and messiah. During the time of David, he captures Jerusalem and from then on it becomes the capital of Israel. Solomon builds the temple during his reign. The temple was symbolically the place that God could dwell. However, through the disobedience of the people of Israel, its enemies come and destroy Jerusalem and the temple. Symbolically, this had a devastating effect on the psyche of the people. This becomes a source of shame and loss of identity. They do have an opportunity to return and rebuild the temple through Ezra. However, the temple was never as great as it was in the time of Solomon.

However, even in the midst of their exile, the people of Israel find hope in a messiah. Their hope came in a future king or high priest who would save them from their enemies and restore Israel. This messiah would come and free them from their subjugation to foreign kings and powers. This was the hope they had in the midst of their despair. Isaiah 11 describes a future messiah coming from the “branch of Jesse”. He will be the one who brings about justice on the earth. He will bring enemies together as “the wolf will live with the lamb”. In Jeremiah 31, God promises hope for their descendants. All may seem lost now. However, there will be a time when the people of Israel will rise up and praise the Lord for all his great deeds.

Of course as we know from the New Testament, Jesus comes as the messiah. However, he does not bring a political solution to the plight of the Jews. The Jews are expecting someone who will save them from their colonization from the Romans. Jesus brings a solution that is radically different. The hope of Israel comes through the body and life of Jesus. The locus of worship goes from the temple to Jesus. Isaiah predicted that the suffering servant would be rejected and killed through his “servant songs”.  So the fate of the messiah was foretold.

What are the places we need the hope of a messiah? Where does our hope come from in times of deep despair? How do my expectations of restoration and rescue differ from what God has in store for me? There have been times in my life when I thought restoration would come in a specific way and I would be disappointed when it didn’t happen that way. God why can’t you just change my father? God why didn’t you heal the thorn on my side instantaneously? God why am I still anxious? God why am I still lonely? In these times, it’s good for me to come back to God and submit all my hopes to him. I must be OK with God working in his mysterious way and not having him resolve my pain and my problems in the way that is the easiest for me. I must put my hope in the Lord who is the only one I can turn to and who I know has in the past and is in the present and will be in the future bringing restoration to my life. That sort of hope is truly good news.

Blogging Old Testament Style – Justice

This blog post will focus on the topic of justice. Justice is a large topic. However, it is sprinkled throughout the Old Testament. I look at the injustice set against the Hebrews by Egypt. Pharoah commits genocide against the Hebrews by ordering the killing of their male babies. However, there’s a story in Exodus 1:15-21 about midwives who covertly disobey the pharaoh’s orders. Shiphrah and Puah lie to the pharaoh and are later rewarded by God for their courage. These midwives disobey the orders of the most powerful person in their corner of the world. I love how these women take matters into their own hands and use their agency to save the lives of so many babies.

Contrast this with Moses, who responds to injustice in a different way. Moses sees the injustice of one of a fellow Hebrew slave being whipped mercilessly by an Egypt overseer. His first response is to use violence and kill the overseer. Even though we can all understand how Moses feels, his form of vigilante violence only begot more violence and fear. Moses ended up running away and actually made things worse for the Hebrew slaves. In an earlier blog post, I discussed the revenge killing of Simeon and Levi. They took justice into their own hands. God nor their father affirmed their actions. Justice belongs to God and not to humans. Violence is never the proper response to injustice. This is complicated because some would say God uses violence to respond to injustice. I think in theory this all makes sense. How does this work in the real world? I can’t speak for deeply oppressed people around the world who have no hope for any transformative recourse. I have privileges that they don’t have. God is the true purveyor of justice and I must discern the ways I can be the hands and feet of God in the work for justice in this world.

Earlier I also mentioned the laws of Israel that mandated justice for the poor, widows, orphans, and foreigners. God through his laws has thoroughly made it clear that he has a strong sense of looking after the oppressed and marginalized. However, Israel starts to be disobedient to God’s call for justice. They oppress the poor and the downtrodden. As they do this, prophets come and rebuke them for their life of injustice which is contrary to God’s will. Jeremiah calls for Israel to come back to God and that destruction is coming their way. Amos emphatically calls out the people of Israel for the ways they have oppressed the marginalized and have become perpetrators of injustice. This theme of living out justice is important for God. He is calling his chosen people to live out in such a way that is an example to other nations. However, this did not materialize. Eventually, these oracles and prophecies against Israel came true and they would lose their land to their enemies.

We read an article in class by Jewish scholar Jon Levenson. He critiques George Pixley and other liberation theologists who see the story of the exodus as a story of human freedom. Levenson critiques our modern notions of freedom and asserts that when the Israelites are freed from Egypt, they are not free in the sense that we think about it. The Israelites are free to be slaves of God. Their freedom is living in the will and plans of Yahweh. That is a very different concept of liberation. We may look at some of these Old Testament stories as stories of justice. However, we may need to examine our modern eyes to see if we are missing the true cultural context of the people of Israel. God’s justice in the Old Testament may look different from our Englightenment influenced definitions of justice and freedom.

Blogging Old Testament Style – Land, Exile, Return

This blog post will be on the topic of land, exile, and return. The concept of land was extremely important to the identity of Israel. They were a people who were landless while they were enslaved in Egypt and also  as they wandered in the wilderness for 40 years. Generations of Hebrews lived as people without a homeland. Even in our world today, there are people groups without a homeland. You look at the situation with the Palestinians in Israel, the Kurds in Iraq and Turkey, and the Uyghurs in China. These are people still fighting for their right to have a piece of land to call their own. So much of a culture’s identity is connected to a physical homeland. That is why people are willing to fight and lose their lives over it. The Israelites roamed around without a homeland. God was forming their identity during the exile. However, throughout the process, he promised them a place to call home. My parents are immigrants from South Korea. There is a sense of loss because their homeland is divided between North and South because of the geopolitics of the Cold War. There is a sense of division and separation that affects the culture and there is a sense of longing for the day when there will be a unified Korea which will make the people whole.

Once the Israelites gained a homeland, God gave them specific rules about how to take care of it. The land was not their’s. The land belonged to God. The Israelites were tenants who would steward the land. In the year of Jubilee, which occurred every 5o years, the fields would be returned to its original owners. The land was not earned by the Israelites. They had to prove that they were worthy of God’s land. This would lead them to become generous and hospitable to their neighbors. The land was a gift from God. Every seven years, the land would also get a Sabbath as nothing new would be planted. Israel had a special relationship with the land. The land was there’s to take care of as something generously given to them by God. This idea of land has implications for us today. We are also called to be responsible stewards of the land that we have been given to take care of. That’s why ecological discipleship is not just optional but truly necessary. This is where the writings of Wendell Berry and Howard Snyder are helpful. They have connected how the Israelites were called to take care of their land to our call today to be stewards of the land and the environment. The earth belongs to God and we are mandated to take care of it.

However, the Israelites continue to disobey God and eventually lose their land to foreign colonizers. They are conquered and exiled to foreign lands in Babylon. They lose their identity as they lose their land. However, God has not forgotten them. Ezekiel has his vision of God bringing life to dry bones in chapter 37. God promises the house of Israel that they will return to their land. Even though Israel has lost all hope, God promises restoration and redemption. Eventually, they are allowed to return to rebuild Jerusalem through Ezra and later with Nehemiah. Even though the temple is not as great as it was back in the time of Solomon, it was still an important event for them to get a glimpse of their homeland again. Throughout the exile, God promises that they will return to their land. Unfortunately, the Jews would continued to be colonized later by the Greeks and Romans. Jesus would come and transform the locus of their homeland from a physical place to the life and body of Christ. The idea of “home” is fundamentally changed from the life of Israel in the Old Testament because of the incarnation of Christ.